• Little Rope

    Sometimes when I jump into a new book, film, or album I don’t do the reading. When I opened my Spotify app this morning I was delighted to find that Sleater-Kinney had a new album out called Little Rope. I saw they had been doing press for a new project for awhile, but I hadn’t gotten a chance to listen to the singles or read any previews. I got to jump in blind.

    When lead singer Corin Tucker opened the album by singing, “Hell don’t have no worries, Hell don’t have no past,” it certainly got my attention. The song “Hell” opens Little Rope as a warning, it’s eerie synthesizers building a wall of tension that eventually get’s obliterated by Carrie Brownstein’s guitar. When I found out that Brownstein’s mother and stepfather passed away in a car accident in Italy during the making of this record, everything snapped into context. You can feel the mourning in songs like “Don’t Feel Right” and “Hell.” Lyrics like:

    I get up, make a list
    What I’ll do once I’m fixed
    Read more poems, ditch half my meds
    Dress my age, call back my friends

    from “Don’t Feel Right” capture what it is to live with the kind grief that suffocates when we experience loss. Brownstein and Tucker never take time to feel sorry for themselves on the album. You can feel the anguish in the songs, they are certainly dipping into a reservoir of pain, but Sleater-Kinney’s brand of power pop rock has always had the feeling of resoluteness. You get the picture of Carrie and Corin leaning on each other, battered like a couple of aging boxers, but still capable of knocking anyone on their ass.

    At just over 34 minutes this another tight, well-made record from a band that has been consistently great for 30 years now. I still miss the Janet Weiss, their former drummer, who is one of the best to ever do it. If there’s anything this album is lacking it’s bit of punch from the drums. For everything that has happened in all their time together, Brownstein and Tucker still have such incredible chemistry. From the moment I first listened to Dig Me Out, it was the back-and-forth between the Corin and Brownstein that gave them such an undeniable presence. Corin’s vocals can still raise the hair on the back of my neck, her wailing at the end of “Untidy Creature” will give you chills, and the grooves on songs like “Dress Yourself” and “Say It Like You Mean It” are just killer. 

    I think this is their best album since 2015’s No Cities to Love, it packs an emotional punch, and has the feeling of a band that has spent a lot of time trying to find meaning in their lives and their work. As I’m taking in Little Rope I can’t help but think about the Foo Fighters 2023 album, But Here We Are and how inspired Dave Grohl seemed to be in the wake of Taylor Hawkins death. We live with these bands for so long, and over time it gets easy to take them for granted, to think we’ve heard everything they have to say. I don’t doubt that tragedy inspired Sleater-Kinney to make the best album they could in the moment, but these songs are not asking for pity, they are an unbridled statement of resilience. Corin sings on “Untidy Creatures:”

    I came away from listening to Little Rope with a newfound love for Sleater-Kinney. Time and loss may have eroded the sharp corners of the band, but what’s left feels sturdier, strong enough to withstand any storm.

  • Godzilla Minus One Coming To US Theaters In Black And White

    I was so bummed that our local picture house only showed Godzilla Minus One the week of Christmas and I didn’t get a chance to to see it. Getting another chance to see it, only in black and white this time, sounds killer. I’ll you see you at the movies.

    Godzilla Minus One Minus Color will come to US theaters starting Fri, January 26.

  • Adam Sandler keeps me guessing in the new trailer for Spaceman

    There maybe no more confounding actor on the planet than Adam Sandler. You might say Nicholas Cage, but anytime he shows up in a new project I honestly know what the vibe of the film is going to be regardless of who is directing. With Sandler I’m not sure if I’m going to get a generation defining performance like he gives in Uncut Gems, a screwball comedy that feels like he’s just getting the bag to hang out with his buds for a few months, or whatever Murder Mystery 2 happens to be.

    Sandler is clearly someone who is not going to say no to a mountain of cash when a company like Netflix decides to throw it at him, and he seems to be using that money to get critically acclaimed, fun movies (Hustle, You Are So Not Invited to My Bat Mitzvah) greenlit. He’s also an undeniably great actor, who, when paired with the directors like the Safdie Brothers or Paul Thomas Anderson is as good as anyone we have in Hollywood. That’s why when I saw the trailer for Spaceman in my YouTube feed this morning I wasn’t sure what the hell to expect. It was an exhilarating experience to play not knowing anything about the movie.

    In this new film Sandler plays the titular Spaceman Jaykup, who is starting to lose his wits while being isolated on a space ship for six months. His wife, played by Carrey Mulligan (great in Maestro!), is pregnant and not happy that her husband isn’t there with her. Throughout the trailer we’re shown what seems to be fantasy worlds inside of Jaykup’s head as he tries to piece together what is going wrong in his marriage.

    Here is the official synopsis:

    Six months into a solitary research mission to the edge of the solar system, an astronaut, Jakub (Sandler), realizes that the marriage he left behind might not be waiting for him when he returns to Earth. Desperate to fix things with his wife, Lenka (Carey Mulligan), he is helped by a mysterious creature from the beginning of time he finds hiding in the bowels of his ship. Hanuš (voiced by Paul Dano) works with Jakub to make sense of what went wrong before it is too late.”

    Spaceman is being directed by Johan Renck, who was principal director of Chernobyl, (one of my favorite series of all-time) and also directed episodes of Breaking Bad, The Walking Dead and Halt and Catch Fire. The film is being adapted by Colby Day from the Jaroslav Kalfar 2017 novel Spaceman of Bohemia. It releases March 1 on Netflix and is coming to select theatres February 23.

  • The Holdovers

    The Holdovers is the eighth major picture from writer/director Alexander Payne (Sideways, Election), starring Paul Giamatti, Da’Vine Joy Randolph, and newcomer Dominic Sessa. The film takes place in the 1970s at a prep school over the holidays. Giamatti plays a history teacher named Paul Hunham, who is the very definition of a crank, who gets stuck having to stay over the winter break to watch a handful of kids who have nowhere to go. The majority of the holdover kids end up, quite literally, getting helicopter evaced by one of the parents to go on a ski trip, leaving the majority of the film with just Hunham, the school’s Head Cook Mary Lamb (Randolph), and a lone student, Angus Tully (Sessa). 

    In The Holdovers each of its main three characters is teetering on the brink of a personal crisis. Hunham, who is widely known to be hated by both the students and faculty, is on thin ice with the school’s president after failing a senator’s kid, despite being told not to. Mary Lamb is in mourning after her only son, Curtis, has passed away in the Vietnam War. She stays over the break because it is the last place she got to spend time with her son. She got the job as a cook as a way to be able get her kid into the prep school. The reason Angus is holding over is because his mother had decided to go on honeymoon with her new husband, reneging on a promise to take her son with them on a trip to St Kitts. You can tell there is tension within the family structure, but the full scope isn’t revealed until later in the film.

    In a lot of ways this is a quintessential Payne film. The main characters all share a sort of world weary disposition. The Giamatti performance in particular just drips with irony and pure disgust for a world that seems unjust, and is only getting a little dumber by the day. Hunham spends the entire film just hammering his students, peers, and even superiors with one liners so sharp they often fly right over the heads of their targets. There’s a great line Hunham gives while he’s at a Christmas party, trying to flirt with someone who is clearly not interested in him, in which the teacher divvies out his entire worldview. “The World doesn’t make sense anymore,” Hunham tells Carrie Preston, a coworker Hunham clearly has feelings for. “It’s on fire. The rich don’t give a shit, poor kids are cannon fodder, integrity’s a punchline. Trust is just a name on a bank.” 

    Giamatti celebrating his Golden Globes win at In-N-Out
    Giamatti celebrating his Golden Globes win at In-N-Out

    This film shows Giamatti in peak form. It’s no wonder he’s already taken home a Golden Globe, and is nominated for a slew of other awards. Much like his performance in Sideways, Giamatti is able to completely inhabit the world Payne is creating around him; he has said in interviews that this character came to him so naturally that it often felt like he wasn’t working hard enough. Both of Giamatti’s parents are academics. As great as Giamatti is at playing dumb characters, I feel like his performances are elevated almost exponentially when he’s allowed to play the smartest person in the room. I’m not sure if there are more than a handful of people on this planet who can go toe-to-toe with him in a scene where he’s given a great script to work off of. 

    Here’s the thing though, as much as I loved Giamatti in The Holdovers, I feel like Randolph and Sessa kind of steal the show. The critical consensus seems to be that Randolph is basically a lock to win Best Supporting Actress at the Oscars, and I can’t argue. She gives the film the much needed injection of warmth and humanity that keeps it from turning overly acidic. She’s the only character that seems to be able to cut through Hunham’s bullshit, often with just a single line. It’s one of the most believable performances of a mothers grief I’ve ever seen, but there’s a deep current of strength and resolve that inspires hope. Rudolph is the heart and soul of the film, and I expect her to be in high demand in Hollywood going forward. 

    Perhaps the most surprising performance in the film is given by Sessa as the young Mr Tully. These kinds of stories, featuring the cantankerous old teacher and his precocious, rough around the edges pupil have been told from time immemorial. For the movie to work Sessa had to bring something new to the role. Sessa actually auditioned for the character at the same school that they ended up filming the movie from. It’s his first time acting in anything outside of his high school theater group. Perhaps this is why he is able to give a performance so believable; both in the fact that his body is so gangly and awkward that you can’t help but only imagine this guy as a kind of dorky high school kid, and the sheer rawness of his performance. Everything from the constant nervous energy, to the wide-eyed realization that the world is just too much for a person to bear, he’s such a perfect foil to Giamatti who is always in full command of his performance. I think it was a brilliant piece of casting from Payne, and a star-making performance for Sessa, who really is mesmerizing. 

    All three of the film’s lead actors are so incredibly emotive, not just in their line reading, but also the pain and frustration expressed in the tiniest of facial expressions. One of Payne’s greatest gifts is his ability to frame his actors, capturing untold depths with a close-up shot. He knows when to let the camera linger a few beats more than other directors would. There’s a scene late in the movie when Hunham is trying to reassure Tulley, who is afraid that he is going to suffer the same ills that befell his father. The camera pulls super tight on Giamatti and Sessa. In Sessa’s face you can see a kid about to completely crumble, suffering from a crisis of the soul, and the reverse shot of Giamatti, with those hangdog eyes glowing and resolute, trying to rescue his pupil. It’s an incredible scene that is just two actors at a table baring their souls and a director who knows exactly how to capture it for maximum effect.

    I’ve read criticism of The Holdovers that its ambitions as a film are a little slight. I think we’ve been desensitized to smaller stories on film because we just don’t see them a lot anymore. Most films that get made, let alone are talked about these days, feature superheroes trying to literally save the universe, or “great men” dealing with the repercussions of building an atom bomb, or a movie that is trying to simultaneously grapple with big ideas like commercialism and modern feminism using the biggest toy IP in history. While the Marvel Cinematic Universe may finally be loosening its clutches on the film industry, what came in its wake still feels superhero adjacent. I loved Oppenheimer, but there is literally a scene where someone tells Oppie to “suit up.” It looked like something straight out of a Batman film. For as delightful as I found Barbie, that entire IP is about suiting up and living in a fantasy world. I hope Oppenheimer and Barbie, two movies made by brilliant auteurs, but still exist in the tentpole paradigm of modern Hollywood, are cinematic methadone. I want – crave really – to see more movies like The Holdovers, films where the interior lives of its characters burn with the same intensity as a hydrogen bomb.

  • Snow Day

    They say it was the storm of the century. Our little city got buried by over 15 inches of snow yesterday. My wife and I took turns shoveling the walks in the middle of a blizzard. We lost a few tree limbs, but the power stayed on and most of our day was spent working on the Crossword while our daughter played Roblox and watched the new season of Bluey.

    It took about an hour for me to dig out our poor little Crossover SUV from the drive way in the morning. Most of the businesses I follow on Instagram have gave up on opening this weekend. We had to move around some plans to see family while we wait for the plows to come and release us from winters clutches. They are saying that the deep cold is going to set in now, the kind that feels like a million red hot needles poking you right in the face. The hunkering down will continue.

    Winter in the Midwest can be a cruel mistress, but I find it to be the perfect backdrop for putting a record on, brewing a good cup of coffee or tea, and getting after my ever growing stack on unread books. Its also when I try to catchup on shows or movies that got lost in the shuffle last year – the Todd Haynes movie May December, and the show everyone seems to be talking about, Slow Horses, say hello.

    I hope anyone who is having to deal with this storm is having a safe and warm weekend. When you are not out shoveling I hope you have a good book to read, a warm meal in your belly and perhaps a few drinks to lift the spirits.

    I’ll leave you with one of my favorite poems.

    Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening

    by Robert Frost

    Whose woods these are I think I know.   
    His house is in the village though;
    He will not see me stopping here
    To watch his woods fill up with snow.

    My little horse must think it queer
    To stop without a farmhouse near
    Between the woods and frozen lake
    The darkest evening of the year.

    He gives his harness bells a shake
    To ask if there is some mistake.
    The only other sound’s the sweep
    Of easy wind and downy flake.

    The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
    But I have promises to keep,
    And miles to go before I sleep,
    And miles to go before I sleep.
  • Asteroid City
    Jason Schwartzman and Tom Hanks in Asteroid City

    I’m a fair weather Wes Anderson fan. If I had to think of a pecking order of today’s great filmmakers, Anderson would probably be somewhere on the second or third tier under the likes of Scorsese, Nolan, Fincher and Tarantino. That said, I don’t think there’s a filmmaker, living or dead, with a better sense of their personal style than Anderson. If I could go to a museum and just look at stills of a movie from any director, this would be my guy.  His work is the embodiment of One Perfect Shot

    It’s fun to ask people about what their favorite Wes Anderson film is. His works are so varied that you can easily fall into a Rushmore Camp, or a Life Aquatic Camp or even a Fantastic Mister Fox Camp. Other than maybe Isle Of Dogs, which is not a bad movie, there are zero misses in the oeuvre. Anderson’s last film, The French Dispatch, was kind of a microcosm of everything I love about and hate about his modern stuff. I think it’s a movie filled with brilliant vignettes, Jeffrey Wright gives an incredible performance. But when it misses, it airballs. It just struck as a movie more concerned with how many plates it could get spinning than telling a story with enough heart to be memorable. 

    In a lot of ways I feel like Asteroid City is a correction to the French Dispatch. Anderson is still showing off in the way the film is presented. The film’s premise is that we are watching a television show, narrated by Bryan Cranston, about a playwright who is trying to finish a new work about a group of genius children who are summoned into the desert for a Stargazers conference where they will receive an award for their ingenuity. While all of these families are in Asteroid City an event happens (no spoilers) that keeps everyone stuck there for a week. Some shenanigans ensue, but eventually everyone is able to go home. The reason they are stuck is not as important as how the characters spend their time together in this tiny town in the desert. 

    The films of Wes Anderson
    via indiewire

    You can’t talk about a Wes Anderson movie without talking about set design, framing, and establishing shots.  You would think that having your film set in a desert may not provide enough visual splendor for a Anderson flick, but the orangish-pink sands contrasted by the bluest skies you’ve ever seen is one for the coolest backdrops to any of his works. As Anderson is wont to do, many of the scenes start as a long establishing shot, which lets us take in the grandeur of the scenery, before the camera pulls in on the action. 

    The call sheet in this movie is one of craziest you will ever see. Tom Hanks is in this movie, and he’s great, but he’s really just a role player. It’s Jason Schwartzman and Scarlett Johansson who really steal the show. I love that both Schwartzman and Cillian Murphy both gave their best performances of their careers this year after making so many films with the same director. While Murphy probably gives the more Oscar worthy (one may say bombastic), showy performance in Nolan’s Oppenheimer, I really loved how stripped back and lowkey Schwartzman plays Augie Steenbeck. 

    Early in the film we learn about the death of Augie’s wife, and how he has told his four children that their mother has passed away. There’s a really heartbreaking scene early in the film where Augie and his father-in-law (Hanks) are on the phone. Augie can’t find the words to tell his children that their mother is dead, he says “the time is never right.” Hanks character, who isn’t a big fan of Augie, replies “the time is always wrong.” Moments before this scene there’s a nuclear bomb test that we see in the distance. This is the American desert of the 1950’s in a Wes Anderson picture after all. In the wake of the phone call we are left to ask ourselves what happens when you lose the person you love most and your life explodes into a million pieces?   

    Scarlett Johansson in Asteroid City

    While waiting for the Stargazer’s convention to begin Augie meets the movie star Midge Campbell, played by Scarlett Johansson, who just chews up the scenery in this movie. Campbells daughter is also a Stargazer and the two families get placed in side-by-side cottages. Johansson’s character has never had a stable relationship with any of the men in her life; including her father, brother, uncles and two husbands. Over the course of the movie Augie and Midge talk to each other from their bathroom windows, and a sort of “my life is messed up, your life is messed up” romance ensues. At one point in the movie Midge tells Augie, “I think I see how I see us… Two catastrophically wounded people who don’t express the depths of their pain because – we don’t want to.” I can’t stress enough how great Johansson is in this. It’s probably my favorite thing she’s done since Lost in Translation

    The heart of Asteroid City’s story is really about how people live with grief. It’s not a mopey pic at all, and I wouldn’t even call it overly sentimental. There’s very little mourning going on, but the film is concentrated on that feeling of almost complete shock that happens in the wake of trauma. There’s a lot of crazy shit that happens in this movie, but it all works because on a fundamental level we can all understand how surreal the world seems when we are grieving. When I’ve lost people close to me there are times when no matter how hectic my everyday life may be, in my head I’m watching it all from somewhere in outer space, hearing nothing but the rush of my own blood in my head.  It’s in those moments everything seems a little wild and out of place.

    So often Wes Anderson films can get lost in their Rube Goldberg designs, but I feel like Asteroid City never lost the plot. The focus of the movie stayed on the characters, while the impeccable set design and pyrotechnics dazzled in the background. In a sequence late in the film our main character gets his moment of catharsis. He quite literally breaks the fourth wall and we’re taken on a journey in which Anderson pushes us all the way down the rabbit hole to deliver the emotional dagger. For a moment we fall through all of layers of pretense so can we get to the truth. In one scene you can almost imagine how Anderson’s entire career had led to this movie, this moment. It felt like the last jigsaw puzzle falling into place, revealing something beautiful. 

  • I’m a sucker for a well made, best-of list, and no one does it better than David Ehrlich. This handcrafted mix of music and deliberately spliced scenes from some of the years best films is exquisite. It’s a beautiful celebration of cinema.

    Ehrlich is the chief film critic at Indie Wire, and has guest hosted on some of my favorite episodes of the Blank Check Podcast. He has been making these countdown videos since 2012, and you can checkout the archive here.

  • Matrix

    Lauren Groff is one of the best writers we have working today. Her 2015 novel, Fates and Furies, really blew me away with its intimate look at a modern marriage infused with elements of Greek tragedy. The novel catapulted Groff to the center of the literary world. The follow-up, a short story collection, Florida, garnered a ton of acclaim. The book won The Story Prize and was nominated for the National Book Award. In Florida you can see Groff start to really settle thematically into someone who is concerned with feminism, conservation, and the use of elements of religion and mysticism in her story telling. Her prose are ferocious. She is able to conjure images on a sentence-to-sentence basis that makes for a super satisfying read. The best analogy I can think of is watching a movie in 4k, HDR. Groff writes into existence worlds that are fully realized, teaming with wonderful details. To quote Katy Waldmen in her New Yorker review of Florida:

    I picked up Groff’s fourth novel, Matrix, shortly after it came out in 2021. The book, naturally, was released to high praise from critics. It was shortlisted for a slew of literary prizes, and seems to have become many readers’ favorite from the author’s oeuvre. It’s a work of historical fiction, based loosely on the life of Marie de France who – in the novel – after being exiled from the court of  Queen Eleanor of Aquitaine, is sent to live in a small abbey in England to live out the rest of her days. At first Marie thinks that she is being sent to her death, and is greatly depressed by this fate, but over time is able to use her intelligence and force of will to create a life for herself as a nun that would become the stuff of legend. 

    The book is set mostly in the 12th century, and is very loosely based on the real Marie de France who is known for having written short romances and fables in a time where few women were known for their writing. Not much is known about Marie’s life outside of her writings, and Groff uses the blank canvas to paint a life of religion, womanly love, sexuality, leadership and motherhood.  In Marie, Gorff had found her muse. 

    I have to be honest. A book about nuns in the 12th century was a big hurdle for me to get over. After skimming a couple pages, Matrix sat in my backlog for years. Shame on me for doubting that Groff would do anything less than turn what, at first blush, may seem mundane into an epic saga filled with bloodsoaked battles, extensive world building, and an almost utopian society of kick-ass women who seem capable of almost anything. Marie goes from being a too-tall, gangly teenager who was desperate to experience the life of a “lady,” to a fearsome, brilliant woman of the faith who turns the humble abbey she is exiled to into a decadent tower of faith. Her abbey would become a beacon of hope in a world that the time was mostly shite. I mean go look it up, the 1100’s did not seem like an amazing time to be alive. 

    What I love about Matrix is that Groff is able to use Marie’s story to play around with ideas like feminism and women’s sexuality in an age in which women are barely given any space in historic texts. Here it’s men who are barely mentioned, and when they are it’s usually as a plot device that spells ill-will for the women in which the story is focused. 

    Groff argues that the nuns who inhabit Marie’s abbey are filled with wonders. While they absolutely are women of the faith, they never cease being humans. So often stories about nuns are filled with a sense of properness and shame. The characters are often stiff, and the tension within is almost always due to the puritanical nature of their lives. Groff is keen to show us the nuns’ interior lives and their very human needs – be they intellectual, sexual, or simply the need to love. There’s no judgement in Groff’s prose, and it frees up the characters to be more than stereotypes. One of my favorite characters, a welsh woman named Nest, is the abbeys de facto doctor, pharmacist, and practitioner of what she calls “expression of humors.” She relieves some of her fellow nuns of their sexual urges. So much of this book is about lesbian love, and how even in an abbey woman should be free from sexual guilt. 

    Marie, who we are introduced to as a scared, unsure teeneager, becomes a woman of great ambition. She has multiple visions of the Virgin Mary, which she interprets as a series of increasingly complicated projects that morphs her tiny abbey into a hub of industry and commerce. Marie’s first job in the abbey is record keeper, where after learning that people who rent land from the abbey have not been paying what they owe, hops on her horse and collects. She finds that her size, which she at one point considered a curse, is a useful tool for a woman of the faith that commands respect and deference. Marie wills her little abbey out of poverty, and after she is voted abbess, commits her life to growing the abbey. She grows the farm on the grounds, has her trainees learn English, French and Latin, in order to transcribe texts, a profitable enterprise for the abbey. 

    In time Marie’s abbey becomes both beloved and feared in her community, to the point where Queen Eleanor warns the abbess that so much success from a group of women would surely be frowned upon by powerful men. Marie calls upon the intelligence and ingenuity of her ever growing flock to create a great labyrinth around the community. And when a group of men do eventually try to infiltrate her holy grounds, the nuns are able to outwit their attackers, boobey-trapping their surroundings, and quickly disposing of the threat. Napoleon would be proud. 

    Marie also shows an impeccable gift for politics. As she uses the wealth generated by the abbey to take great care of the poor around her. It is said that even the rich amongst them are not able to afford such nice clothes as are provided to the impoverished by the nuns. The taxes and tithes that her community gives the Queen and her diocese insulates them from an ever increasing hostile world. By the time that Marie reaches the end of her life, the abbey is able to have fresh water from a local dam they have built year round, which contributes to a brewery and winery. The abbey, which was in a place of great disrepair when Marie arrived, stocked with only a few animals and not enough grain to last the winter, is now a self-sustaining center of agricultural, industrial, and cultural abundance. 

    It’s the ways in which Matrix blends elements of historical fiction and magical realism that makes the read so much damn fun. Groff keeps pushing at the limits of what we believe one person is capable of. Throughout the novel Maries subjects are quick to point out that perhaps their abbess is overreaching her boundaries. At one point Marie even starts conducting Mass, which at the time was heresy. The common people in towns surrounding the abbey consider Marie to be some combination of witch-queen, seer, and saint. All the while Groff seems to be saying, “why not?” Why shouldn’t Marie do everything in her power to improve the lives of her flock? What is the point of adhering to society’s rules and expectations when that society is, in itself, corrupt and destructive. Groff’s Marie de France is both awesome and terrifying to those around her because she is uncompromising in her womanhood. The brand of feminism she represents is as terrifying to our modern establishment as it would have been to hers.  Even now we can’t help but look upon her deeds and tremble. 


    Editor’s Note: Groff has launched an IndieGoGo campaign to help launch a new independent book store in Gainesville, Florida. You can check out the details here.

  • Right Back to It

    As my corner of the Midwest gets walloped by one of the biggest snowstorms we’ve seen in years, I spent my morning building a snowman, shoveling the walks, and sipping some hot cocoa. I have to admit these kinds of days put me in a bit of a nostalgic mood. Well, sometimes the universe can be the great bartender that knows just what the moment calls for.

    I was delighted to see two of my favorite artists Waxahatchee (Katie Crutchfield) and MJ Lenderman team up on a new single, “Right Back to It,” a song about the anxiety of trying to rekindle an old relationship, and what a blessing it is have someone who makes that process easy. The duo sings, ‘You just just settle in like a song with no end. If I can keep up, we’ll get right back to it.” It’s a beautiful song that captures that wistful feeling looking back at old relationships can provoke.

    Lenderman and Crutchfield have incredible chemistry. Katie maybe the best song writer of her generation. Her last album as Waxahatchee, St Cloud, was my favorite of 2020, and my appreciation for it has only grown in the years since. I think it’s a masterpiece. An album that feels so essential to warm summer nights and driving with the windows down.

    The video, directed by Corbett Jones and Nick Simonite, is beautifully shot and features the duo sailing down a river on a pontoon boat, Katie singing and MJ shredding on his guitar while providing laid back harmony vocals. I love that Lenderman continues his boating theme. His last full-length album, Boat Songs, was one of my favorites of 2022. I talked a lot about Lenderman in my best of 2023 post, but I really believe he’s destined to become one of indie’s brightest stars, and this song will be a great introduction to the artist for anyone who missed out on his work with the group Wednesday, or his phenomenal solo works.

    Waxahatchee’s new album Tigers Blood, comes out March 22 via Anti- Records. Just in time for summer.

  • 16 Years

    It may only be a week since I came back to WordPress after a rather long layoff, but I was shocked when I got a notification while working under-the-hood on the site that today is my 16th anniversary blogging here!

    My first post all those years ago was about Roger Clemens lying about his steroids use. Looking back at that post now is like hopping into an internet time machine. Just look at those tastefully rounded corners on the border of the content. Look at those beautiful hypertext links, including a dead link that, presumably, went to Bill Simmons ESPN Page 2 column. Just seeing an RSS button in 2024 is enough to bring a tear to my eye.

    In the decades since that first post I went on to write hundreds of blogs with an old high school friend, mostly sticking to sports. We had a fair amount of success with Grind It Out Sports, getting posts we wrote to show up in USA Today’s sports blog as well as SI.com’s Extra Mustard (their version of ESPN’s Page 2 at the time). I believe we even made a few bucks in advertising money, back when even small sites like ours could manage that sort of thing. It’s been fun seeing so many of writers that had their own small blogs at the time make the jump to head writing positions at places like ESPN and The Ringer.

    In the decade since I stopped writing about sports my time on WordPress has been spent mostly writing book reviews, talking about culture, and even penning the odd short story that I have locked in a dungeon for fear that exposure would result in death by cringe. In an essay I penned at the ripe old age of 29, I talked about my fear of getting older and losing my love for creative work:

    I desperately want to make a connection to the world through my writing in the same way that most people are desperate to find that sort of connection in a significant other. It’s been years since I could say that I had a zealous passion for anything, and the only thing I can think about is the process of writing, because I am terrified that the even the slightest distraction will extinguish this newly kindled lust for life. Maybe someday I will meet a girl who inspires the same kind of feelings that I have for the written word, but until that day comes I am going to keep my head down and continue the hone the craft that I feel I was put on this Earth to do.  You can call it a fools love, but it burns with the same ferocity of any Shakespearean romance.

    This was a person who was definitely not getting laid. Six months later I would meet the love of my life and start a life that did in fact take me away from writing. In the decade since that post I’ve learned that the meaning of true love cannot be found in any number sonnets, Shakespeare or otherwise. Little did I know that I would meet someone who could pull me kicking and screaming through the Trump Years, a pandemic, losing loved ones, the Biden Years and raising a child. The grace with which she dances through my endless hurricane of anxiety and orneriness is more impressive than anything I read during all those years alone.

    To be fair to the old me, I haven’t kept up with writing, especially in the years since the pandemic. When lockdown started I thought it would leave me time to read all of the great American novels and at long last pen that manuscript that would for once-and-for-all prove that I was a capital-W writer. Turns out that when shit hit the fan I did what most people did: gained some weight, played a bunch of great video games, and held on for dear life. Those home made meals and nights playing Fall Guys with my wife sustained me.

    Which pretty much brings us to the present day. What brought me back wasn’t so much some great longing to prove my old self wrong. I’ve lost any illusions of being the next Lauren Groff or Colson Whitehead a long time ago. Honestly I came back because I miss the act of writing. I hate how often I find myself mindlessly consuming content, whether it be on social media or otherwise. There’s something about taking an hour or two to hold an idea in my mind – whether it be a book, a movie, or some thought I had while walking with my kid – that is completely satisfying and restorative. That’s what writing does for me. It’s sustenance for the soul. I’m forced to live in a moment for more than a few seconds, and I have to reckon with it. There was a time, not so long ago, that the very idea of trying to examine any moment of my life for more than a second or two would have been a fate worse than death… but those clouds have passed.

    I’m honestly not sure what this blog will focus on going into the future. I’m keen to read more in 2024, but who isn’t? I told my wife that I planned on trying to read more books this year than I did back in 2014. She laughed when I told her how many books that was (54). We will see. I have found myself with a renewed vigor for seeking out new movies and music, if only as an allergic reaction to my calcifying taste. So yes, I’ll probably talk a good bit about art, and life, and I apologize ahead of time but politics will probably worm its way into the conversation as well. Much like life these days the not knowing is harrowing and life affirming in equal measure.

    So here’s to 16 years of writing, and the chance for many more.